How do you tell someone that is mentally insane to appreciate what they have and not to take it for granted, when all they ever manage to accomplish is destruction? Sometimes with these people it turns into a conversation with a rock. Nothing gets through no matter how hard hit at it. You can be blunt, caustic, or simply just lose it and nothing seems to work. It is especially worse when they don't realize that they are speaking in opposites, saying one thing then explaining actions that contradict their statements. I don't know if anyone reads this but answer me this: How can someone 100% not love someone, not see a future with them, hate everything about them, but when asked why not leave that person, they reply that they don't want to be alone? For me being with someone that 100% you do not lover, do not see a future with them and hate everything about them, this is being alone. You cannot speak to this person, better yet you won't, you won't interact with person, they may as well be a lamp, and whether that lamp is there or not you won't feel comfort it just being there, it won't make you feel less "alone". Saying that being with that person gives you comfort in the way of not being alone, having someone to hug, or hold, this means that you do have some feelings for this person, this means that maybe, just maybe you only 99.9% not love someone. Is it not worth the .1% to stop being a bitch or an asshole and see if maybe instead of a glass half empty you see it half full, you start seeing that you love them .1%, the positive and that maybe this little is worth seeing if it can become 100% in love?
In the end if it still does not work out and you gave it your 100% to see if it worked, at least you can walk out head high knowing it failed not because you let it, but either because of them or external circumstances. You will then never be plagued by the dreaded what-ifs that we occasionally get from making choices that may benefit the moment but not the lifetime that is ahead of us.
Needless to say - this shit is crazy!
